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Choosy dads choose chu5/23/2023 While it was not the news we wanted, it was definitive news. ![]() I can't honestly remember what day it was. Spotting started at some point on Saturday or Sunday for my wife. We continued at home testing Friday and saw the line not getting darker, and on Saturday the test barely showed that it was positive. After the blood test on Thursday we feared for the worst. I wish I could tell you that after 4 years I was better able to accept what happened but I just can't. I know you both deserved to grow up with your parents, and your parents deserved to get to watch you grow up. I don't understand how it happened, or why it happened. I don't know why you both had to go to heaven and not grow up with mommy and daddy. I am so proud of the way you tried to save your sister. Today during the movie I cried because I remembered something about you Oscar that I had not thought about in a long time. Please don't take that as a sign of you having done something wrong. I didn't cry very often before you two were born. Oscar I think you would have enjoyed it more than Bella did. We picked a movie we think you would enjoy watching. I know I would like to see people enjoying the food I got for you. I hope you get to watch the people who got your food enjoy it. I know at 4 years old it is hard to give away things that you like and things that you want- but it is important to help others. I wish I got the chance to know you.Īfter we shopped for you your mommy and I donated all of the food we got for you to a food bank. ![]() I wish I had you here with me so that I didn't have to hope and guess. I hope I got it right and I really did get you things you would enjoy. ![]() It is nice to put myself into what I think you would be thinking about and get you things I think you would like. Oscar I picked out a lunch and a dinner I thought you would like. Bella I picked out a breakfast, and a snack I thought you would like. That was my promise to you some time after you were born, every July 30th would be your day, and I will not break that promise. Today your mommy and me took the day off, as we do every year in order to do things to remember you. Do the celebrate birthdays in heaven? We sure do celebrate them down here, though not in the way most people would celebrate birthdays.
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